love? can it remain forever?

I was afraid if I really fell in love, I am afraid if I cut off before the end of love with joy with him .. but I think I know that I will not be with him in the future .. why?? .. I'm not sure .. hearts too confident to say it .. I know who I am and who he is .. I think I was the woman who only failing hearts of others .. so better if I start a relationship with no hope for the future together, but I not women like that .. very difficult for me to like someone and I am also very difficult to forget someone .. if one day he will leave me? if one day he will disappoint me? I am very afraid of serious relationships I'm sorry this .. .. but we know what we think .. feelings will not change easily .. and I need the strength to face this challenge .. finally .. we just need to believe in our destiny .. if any mate we will stay together ..

I hope we will be wearing a wedding dress .. to heaven with beautiful .. I'm not sure it's justfalse hopes or expectations ..
I can only pray that God show me the way the truth ..
I will always love you ..